I'm feeling like Little Bo Peep. We have lost our rhythm and don't know where to find it.
Somehow the pressures of work and children have consumed us despite our best efforts. Well, maybe "best effort" would be an exaggeration on Steve's part.
More nights than not lately, I'm going to bed frustrated while my husband finds everything else in the world to do besides spank me. Many mornings I'm waking up to an "I'm sorry, I know you wanted some attention last night, but I was too tired. Don't worry, I'm going to get us back on track."
He's been one big wind bag lately. He talks about spanking me, teases me about trying out strange implements, or trying out a different position to put me in, but then..... nothing.
I told him how I felt last night. "I'm tired of 'I'm sorry'. If you were really sorry it would have changed. I'm tired of 'I'm tired'. Here's a thought... don't stay up until two in the morning watching tv or playing video games and you'd might have the energy to give me some attention. I'm tired of 'Don't worry'. I am worried that getting back to the rhythm we had established so well is going to keep being put off until it is all a distant memory. I am worried because I see myself slipping back to where I was before. I see us slipping back into the previous relationship patterns. If you don't want me to worry then get us back on track."
Ready for the big reply? "I know. I'm going to get us back on track."
I want to yell at him, "Stop telling me that and do it already!"
Alas, I know this is a common pitfall that many dd couples go through during the course of their relationship, but that doesn't make it any less aggravating.
Anyway, if anyone sees our rhythm, will you please direct it to come back home? I miss it.